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I am not white.

But I am.

and

and I was right!  What do you think?

You wanna talk??

I was defending my mom.  She was trying to ultimately get me.  I don't hurt anyone.  If someone fights with me, I have fought back, online.

I argue and debate.

So, what do you think is worth it?  I say helping animals.

Problem

I am a good person and don't need to worry @ good people punishing me.

Gotcha

"Hop Scotch!"

Problem

Why are you bothering me all day??

Well

I cooled down in my room away from my dad.  I don't think he has to mold me.  He is irritating me.

Statement

It must be the racy Irish blood.  I am not funning, just saying.  I mean, like I feel she is like all whacked.  Maybe, she needs a break.  It's okay with everyone else.  I bet she wouldn't like to see me talking @ her.  At least, I am going deep and just stating things and not opinions.  I just got a bad sensation, we're only human.  She's sane in front of a camera.  You really should trust her other than the mean things that others have all had happen to me.

Issue

So, what's up with Mom?

Problem

She really is inappropriate.  I just got a message.. maybe the other people are inappropriate.. but she seems to be in the flesh.  I forget, and I was interrupted.  She is really attacking me.  I can say it if I like.  It shouldn't get totally worse because of it.

Problem

Ellen is not more special than anyone that we dare not suggest anything to her!  She has already suggested a lot to me.  I'm not saying I hate her.  Maybe, she thinks I should.. *bubbles popping*  I mean, she can't be considered like listen to her but not someone else just because ^she exists^ no hard feelings..

Question

I was looking to see if the ice skating rink had a TV and I felt that I wasn't worth it to even be allowed to watch something I'm simply able to watch, "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  How dare anyone think that I am just different and Chinese, maybe not a person.  That means you better get ridda your dogs.

Problems

I am not my parents.  They keep trying to suddenly pry into my life and see what I really think.

E-Mail

I need someone to talk to @ something that's not too important..

..I had called the police, and they took me to Lakeside for no reason because I was with my therapist @ the time and she just let me go and they cuffed me and lied to me, again.  I threw things in the house, and the police just took me.  I was taken to the mental hospital in New Orleans when I least expected, just was withdrawn.

No, my counselor is not much help.  I just want someone to talk to @ my worries and I thought a lawyer might help.  How much does it cost to consult you?  If I have no money, can you tell me what else I can do?

I wanted to talk to a police @ my problems.  Do you know how I can get there?  They are always open to help, I thought, not taking me to jail.  I mean, instead of calling someone over the phone.

Or you can just respond to this and tell me what you think.  Nothing happened, I just want someone to talk to.  Do you know a help line that will talk to me?  Counselors just say I'm sick for stupid reasons and don't help.  They don't say anything to me.  So, yea, before it's too late.  You might help me plan my future or something.  Seems my counselor can't do that.  Should I talk to you or someone else?  I already post my questions online and not much participation in helping me.  Like, I want to talk @ the nature of Orlando and what it's like living with people here.  Thanks.

Sincerely,

Christina Barrett

Why should I care?

She's pretending she's not trying to make me feel uneasy.

So, what?

Just accept this?  What if I wanted to say it was really bad?  You think I'm really bad and since you're bad it's some misunderstanding and I'm bad, instead?

Problem

These teaching things must be punishments.  I am a good person and will not accept this.  I don't have an attitude problem.  You're just being tacky--whoops can you take that?  I don't know who I'm talking @.

Problem

My dad was mean to me for what was in my head.  It became a thing I did..

I'm sure.

It was wrong.  It is what it is.  If I wanna hit something, I hit it.  You can't send me away to the clin'c.

Problem

I don't give a care about these ^tests^.  They are tacky.  You see, my dad wouldn't stop being suggestive and like cornering me.

Problems

All you people do is sit there and moan about me being tacky to like Ellen.  Well, she is pretty popular so I get the gold.

Also, though, I feel like m********ing in a way, like I am.  They won't stop bugging me!  And get mad at me!

WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM

YOU'RE THE 1 SENDING ME ALL THESE HATE MESSAGES, WHOEVER YOU ARE!!  YOU JUST MADE FUN OF ME FOR SAYING WHOEVER YOU ARE!  YOU THINK YOU'RE SO IMPORTANT IN THAT WAY YOU CAN HURT ME.

You don't have to do anything for anyone!  I'm not submitting to the mean young people!  That's the dream I got.

I just went ice skating again, and my dad was all annoying me.

I got good at the end, but I didn't use the side this time so built some muscle, going every day will help.

Problem

My dad is sending me more Ellen notes all constantly at me.  TAKE THAT.  YOU THINK YOU DID IT OR WHAT?!

Ellen doesn't give a shit @ me if my dad called my brother a nigger.  She just gets mad at me.

Aw, I understand..?

Have I been seemingly nasty recently.. time to do away with me?

Problem

My dad affected the baby part of my body.  On the right..

..I see trees of green..

Sad

Even if I was famous, it wouldn't matter?

So

If someone else did it 1st, what does that mean for me?

Fame and Fortune..

If Chloe Sevigny got cast in a famous movie, she'd be famous.

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What shall I do?

It's been worse.  I guess I can pray @ it.  I was trying to attract people.

Tooling

@ Disney, a lady started crossing her leg like Ellen after her show.

Apology

Sorry for my behavior..probably unsettling.  Let's see if I can make people happy, anyway.

Problem

Ellen does have an attitude, she can't stare us down into conformity.

Problem

These weird people need to stop piping in thinking they're better and playing around with me.

I know who started it and finished it..

Yay!

I'm finding Christmas songs that are legal to sing without asking for copyright permission.

Taking Advantage of Me

I certainly am being used, but you try to impress people just cuz they didn't answer my e-mails.

Weird

Ellen thinks I have to accept I am insulted because of my race.

Animals

So, a dino is resembled by a bird and a fish!

Issue

Think it's a bit ridiculous the way my parents and others treated me, like uh I don't think so?

Problem

I think some people are bugging me again @ something I don't mean..  They just won't stop!  I can talk about it.  When something is wrong, that's what yo mamma says to do!

New Videos

New Videos of Me Singing

Edit

I said @ instead of all over..

Update

I added my heritage to the side.

An Old Girl

Learning to improve her singing as though she weren't even 20!

Does she look funny?

link

I mean cuz she's Dutch she thinks she's all that and keeps tilting her head like the older girls.. LOL!  What am I then, shit?

Problem

People getting all serious?  They were the 1s who didn't respond  I was messaging them with help for their lives and they didn't say they wanted me to stop, no answer!  Who cares @ you or anyone?!  This is really lame, no hard feelings.  I was trapped in my room with nothing to do and wanted to say sorry and see if they'd talk to me a little.  But no they are all cutesy in their own world thinking they do good to me, yet everyone is giving them pity like suddenly they are more and more better.

How do you explain why someone is attractive and someone isn't?  We should all be friends, more or less.  It cannot be oh I am ugly but that's because you're not white even though you have done better with what you're supposed to do.  You can't say that you're white so all of a sudden you knock out someone not as white who was more well-behaved.  I am not saying anyone in particular is more or less unattractive.  Because of this they are competing for things they cannot have because most people don't do anything to help them get it like them.  I don't mean it in some bad way but like how it is.  Like, they simply don't do much exercise or something like that.

I will not take this playing around about something.  How do you have the right to know and get all uppity?  People who seem to make sense suddenly doing this.

Sorry if anything I said was off.

What's the big idea?

Why are my old best friends coming to the world and overshadowing me all of a sudden?  No one who knows them would let that happen.

Who set off the buzzer?

Should I bother apologizing?

Someday, I won't have time.

Anyway, I guess mostly sorry to the people I seem to have insulted most.

But who doesn't deserve to be critiqued so by me?  I just tell it like it is, not trying to bring any insult into it.

Problem

Isn't that just an attack on me for doing something that pleasures me, reading English text?  Anyway, what about the rest of Europe.  That is text but not English text!!

Problem

What right do you have to read beautiful text?  You wanna steal my music??

Is Mommy and Daddy an English major?

Weird

These people think they can get away with anything just because I have benefits, too..

Edit

I edited the + sign to be a , .

Edit

I just added my race.

How Dare You

You can't get away with saying I am not supposed to read cuz I'm Chinese.

Update

*now let me shine this 1 up for you*

New text box on the side!

Question

What do you think of Ellen being nonchalant and having me get stressed over threats on communications from my parents by what I think in my room?

I doubt it.

I doubt it's shyness.  I don't mind, but it's sad for them, innit??

Problems

Are you still a person if you're all not on Twitter?

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Problems

I don't have to be careful cuza race where others don't.

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Problems

I'm starting to ignore people. I'm also mad @ being stimulated like my friend likes.

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Problems

I'm serious, I see people not even online! Well, okay, but I know why.

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Problems

Sorry I was just feeling aroused. So, blame my dad!

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I do mean it.

I mean something.

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Problem

I am just feeling attacked.

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Problem

For some reason you think what you think I mean.

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Problem

I'm tired of running across these people who think they know I'm bad!

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Problems

I don't wanna worry @ my posts not sending, and no one cares @ my mean old friends!

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Problem

A slobbering infant is what comes to mind. Not adults. Ha ha ha.

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Problem

My posts keep x-ing a notification! You have no right to know what I'm talking @ in what I said.

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Problems

They just gave me an x on my e-mail. Imagine how that goes. What can I do @ my dad?

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.. You all want a bit of attention?

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Problem

If you dare restrain yourself from online, should not ring a bell as you, no one cares, cuz I don't give a *beep* @ my old bad best friends and their trash rules like you are as good as your parents dependently, someone in trouble! I know you just want something for yourself. I did not say the nature of who this could ever fit but think it's a real issue. Cuz I don't like my dad arousing me and being able to. Yea, no one is online cuza Burton framing me!



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Problem

My dad keeps playing with my privates. I am touchy @ him.

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My dad was mean to my mom when I didn't have my shoes tied.

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Mobile

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Problem

Ellen won't stop getting bad things to happen to me through other people because she's uncomfortable and thinks I need to be all over something that isn't the situation she thinks has happened.

Problem

This person won't stop!!

Why

is my butt caving in?

Problem

My dad just coughed and felt up my butt to flatten out.

They're also talking @ things that don't matter much.

I want my butt like before and still feel tall!

Problem

So, they wanna call my future daughter a nigger and stuff.  I won't accept this..

Another trick of the aunt?  How lame.  I don't wanna think she does this..

Cement nose acute?  Why won't these messages cease?  Also, what did I do?  Now it's process!

I guess..

..yesterday I was just crazy @ the weird..stuff!

Also, I regret how things slipped recently thise weekend, as well.

Dream

I think I was doing something which reminded me of ice skating.  I was talking to a boy and teacher @ an art teacher that we didn't like a whole lot as a person.. though we would were we older.  It wa an escape dream, I think.  It was some life or death situation, I think.